Don't feel the need to judge me, I'm doing a good enough job myself

I honestly thought that this months "giving up" task would be easy. Not the easiest but having given up chocolate for the full 40 days of Lent last year, I honestly thought 29 days dessert free would be easy.

Yeah, I was w....mistaken.

The cricket-ball dramas of last weekend made for a hectic week of work, specialist visits, work from home, work, specialist visits, work from home, work, doctors visit, more work at home.. you get the point. In this time I've broken my dessert-free vow twice three times: and I feel terrible!

First it was on Tuesday and since the ungrateful so-and-so I'm married didn't appreciate his 'unusual' valentine's day gift, I made it my mission when I got home to prove that someone did and promptly ate two of the lovely wrapped gold stars before I realised what I was doing. So consciously I wasn't concentrating on what I was doing, but you'd think after 14 days my brain would have readjusted itself by now.

The second break was completely on purpose. After discovering the in-laws are bringing our nieces & nephews to visit over Easter, my mind turned (naturally) to what chocolatey goodness I could send them crazy with, while filling the car up and when I went in to pay, the single Cadbury Caramello Egg sitting in a massive bowl looked so lonely I decided "what the hell" and ate that too.

Last night brought with it the third leg of failure when after three glasses of wine and a night of solo chick-flick watching ahead of me - hubby was absorbed in the cricket - I surmised that you simply can't watch a remake of a Kevin Bacon classic (or really, any chick flick for that matter) without ice-cream so promptly grabbed straight one from the freezer without blinking, thinking, passing go or collecting $200.

I have ZERO self control.

Still, I have learnt two things:

1. I really don't need to eat as much dessert as I have previously. I could never just eat one piece of chocolate, or one scoop of ice-cream, or one piece of cake at morning tea, but now after having stumbled on small amounts over the past couple of weeks, I've realised that yes actually, small amounts are just as satisfying and don't leave you feeling like a bloated, sugar-overloaded mess at the end of it.
2. It's really not a good idea to give up dessert when you're also supposed to be overhauling your diet in general. I think this is the real cause of my issue this month. After a recent visit to a dietitian on some health-related matters for hubby, I made a conscious effort to overhaul our eating habits more than I had previously and I think doing that, coupled with giving up sweets may have been all too much for my brain to handle. 

So I'm entering the last 12 days of this month with new found commitment to my dessert-free life and also a plan to re-"give-up" dessert again in a few months time, once the rest of our lifestyle changes have kicked in and become habitual.

So yes, I've pretty much ballsed-up this month's mission but you can't win them all right? Now if you'll excuse me I'm going to drop and give me 20 for my sins.