T minus two days

Two days until my mission starts and I've been thinking more about why I want to do this. Initially, I thought it was because I was bored at work one day and it was one of those ideas that randomly popped into my head on a Friday afternoon, but the more I think about it, the more I think there's a better reason.

Procreation. Reproduction. Giving birth. Raising kids.

I'm at the point in my life where a lot of people I know are having kids, and I envy them. Not because I want them and can't have them (at least, not that I'm aware of) but because they can be so utterly selfless.

I'm too selfish to have kids at the moment. I cherish my quiet time. I love the fact my husband and I can come home from work and if we don't feel like cooking dinner - we don't. If I want to loll about in my pajamas on the weekend and eat copious amounts of ice cream - I can. I can watch what I want on television when I want, I can stay out late, I have time to do the hair and make-up thing of a morning....

Apparently, you can't always do that once you become aware of some very small people in your house...